Life lessons of 2018

Hello Perkirinos! (I have no idea why I’ve given you guys a fangirl name but hey ho)

How was your Christmas? Was Santa generous? Did you manage to spend a whole evening in the vicinity of your family and manage not to murder anyone? If the answers are amazing and yes then congrats, you’ve managed to have a decent Crimbo. I would have done a lovely festive little blog post on the big day but I was too busy procrastinating and buying last minute presents obvs 🙂

Instead you get this lovely Pre New Years post which is actually on time for once, atta girl!

So….2018…

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it’s been a year of transitioning, feelings, change and memes…

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I am ready for 2019.

Writing this post is probably the best thing for me right now. Having done an intense three weeks of group therapy (that’s 9-5 everyday, talking about your feelings folks) means I’m more focused on what I need to do, who I need to be and who I need to do it with next year…

Or maybe this is all bullshit from a raging 22 year old with a detrimental sleeping pattern and unhealthy coping mechanisms…but I can only take it with a pinch of salt 😀

I tried making a set of very unrealistic goals in September 2017 and only achieved one (to graduate lol) and that told me that I put way too much pressure on myself and need to take things one step at a tiiiiime…(cue Jordin Sparks acapella)

I’m hoping that 2019 becomes the year of the grind. I have no idea what to do with this blog, I wish I could make it a ‘thing’ but its a crazy mix of personal shit and I’m not sure I’m comfortable with my very own stream-of-consciousness to be made public. Considering making an active travel and lifestyle blog but I have no idea what I’m doing.

If you have any advice on what I can do or even about my current life state then feel free to comment and send memes etc.

I just realised I titled this post “Life lessons” but I didn’t actually offer any lessons. I am a certified dinkus

One thing that really stood out for me this year is the absence of self-love and confidence that leads to my depressive funk and inability to place the blame on things other than myself. I need to figure out how to give myself self-love, believe in myself and stop doubting myself. Not sure how much of a grip I can get on this in 2019 but I’m gonna try!

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“I miss you” season is nigh

Winter is coming. You heard it here first. The sky is blue and black, mulled wine is coming back and that neighbour you can’t stand has his house all decked out with lights and a minature Santa flashing on the roof. It’s also when the feelings of dread and loneliness hits those suseptible to the “winter blues”. Maybe sitting on your coach tussled up in your warmest blankets listening to Frank Ocean on repeat isn’t enough and you’re craving a companion to help you make it through the winter. Yes, “I miss you”season has hit and it’s time for another year where you’re targeted by the Lonely.

Bootycalls are coming so hard you can’t keep up with all the “Yo you up? I need a cuddle -insert unblinking eyes emoji-” and it’s giving you a headache having to free your phone storage. It’s hard to fathom that a little cold weather instantly turns men into horny teenagers but it’s happening. Suddenly a season is being used as an excuse to fornicate with every Tom, Dick and Harry on Tinder.

Let’s not forget the men who use winter as an excuse to target the emotionally vulnerable. That ex you keep trying to shake off? Suddenly he’s suggesting Winter Wonderland dates where you can wonder around bustling markets holding his hand while you attempt to take cutesy couple pictures. Seems innocent enough. How about that friend who has been attempting to escape the ‘friend-zone’ for months but you’ve been escaping his clutches every time? Ice Skating Between Friends starts off sinlessly but he’s grabbing you everytime you nearly fall, trying to take your hand at every occasion and that mistletoe you both walked past looks very conveniently placed.

Friends this is the time to remain painfully aware. Emotions will be driving you crazy. Especially seeing photos of perfect couples on Instagram documenting a perfect Winter of Love where everything is perfect and you have no reason to feel lonely or alone. But we must fight these feelings and curve the preying men on sight. Winter will pass and you will still be lonely and single and that’s okay. There’s always Spring.

12 things in my life scarier than your usual Halloween shit

1. Student debt – more than £30K worth. Can I get a hell yeah?

2. Couple costumes – No we don’t want to see you both dressed up in cutesy little matching Fred and Velma. It maketh me sicketh.

3. The term “slaps”. Like “this song really slaps”. It sounds like something your Dad would say while trying to sound cool.

4. My crippling depression. Yeah 🙂

5. The current USA gun crisis. I am fucking terrified.

6. Adulting. When does it start to feel natural? How do you do know if you’re doing it right? Can you return it without a receipt?

7. My bank account. All those minuses 😉

8. Jamie Oliver. NOTHING IS SACRED ANYMORE

9. My nightmares. Complex, scary shit that would send my dear Freud in a tizzy.

10. The term “Social media influencers”. Sounds a bit like brainwashers beaming hypnotic vibes out to us. You-must-buy-this-weightloss-milkshake

Big, beautiful and bustling

Taj Mahal Day was here!

I woke at the crack of dawn (sorry 8 AM) today because it was the day we were going to see one of the most renowned sights on Earth. As a designated UNESCO World Heritage site, Emperor Shah Jahan definitely went the extra mile to create a memorial mausoleum for his wife Mumtaz.

The palace was a short walk from our hotel and we reached there in about fifteen minutes. We queued up, received our audio guides and began our sightseeing.

Once we got to the main viewpoint of the Taj Mahal we were able to take in all of it’s beauty. Ivory marble, the architecture was mesmerising with a view like that it was obvious why so many tourists flock to see it. However, that was also a negative as I was pushed and shoving trying to get a photo that I wished I had extra limbs at this point as being both short and British was not helping! Picture me attempting to find a decent angle while fending off hundreds of other people: “Excuse me, sorry, could I just squeeze past?”.

We made it to the front and took in the formation up close. If the view was amazing from the previous angle it was certainly something here. Every little detail was rich and intricate and a magnified image of perfection. It wasn’t just a case of building something beautiful no, it was carefully planning out and assembling every little structure, design and corner. Traditional patterns and mosaics covered the insides and surrounded the tomb of Mumtaz Mahal. Romance is clearly not dead.

Learning so many facts about the Taj Mahal in itself was great as I wasn’t that knowledgeable about the history so it was good to pick up some unique bits of Indian history. All in all, I enjoyed seeing the Taj Mahal in all its finery but didn’t enjoy the crowds and the hassle that comes with big tourist sites!

Family getaway to Zadar! – Old Town Zadar

So my immediate and extended family decided to book a little trip to Croatia for four days. Picture 8 adults and 3 kids in an uber cool villa (It had a spa!) and there will be some half term antics.

The flight was an early morning one and I joined my uncle in a pint-at-the-airport-no-matter-the-time ritual. Having a beer at 5 AM turned out to be a good thing as I found myself drifting into sleep on the flight which is usually impossible for me – I rarely fall asleep on planes!

We got to Zadar airport around 10 AM, grabbed our luggage and our rental cars and hit the road. I hadn’t seen any pictures of the villa we hired so I was in full awe when we reached there. To say it was massive is an understatement. There was a games room complete with a ‘foosball’ table, a pool table and a sauna.

A few of the adults decided to do a supermarket run so the rest of us were free to hurtle into the pool or the hot tub. Naturally the adults chose the hot tub – who doesn’t want some bubbles and beer?!

When we were all pruned out and ready for dinner we decided to go and explore Zadar town. Smooth stony streets with medieval architecture with churches and cathedrals surrounded us. We took a peaceful (well peaceful as it can be with 5 kids in tow) stroll down Old Town Zadar in search of food and found a gelato store that would put some of Italy’s finest to shame.

Taking a walk on the waterfront, we heard Zadar’s sea organ attraction. What looks like ordinary stone steps leading into water is actually a piece of architecture which uses water and air to create resonant chimes of music. Clever engineering which produces an unique tourist attraction? Tick.

 

It was pretty windy so after taking the usual 30 photos in 20 different angles, we got some tea and tried to make sure the kids weren’t killing each other  coffee. The kids were getting ratty at this point so we returned home and the kitchen turned into your bog standard workshop covered in vegetables, chopping bread and bread. Eat your heart out Gordon Ramsey!

I ended the night with a few beers and a movie. The first day was a chilled one.

Perks guide to freshers: Do’s and Don’ts!

Perks guide to freshers: Do’s and Don’ts!

Okay, so some of of you may start university this September/October and may need some handy hints and tips. I am aware said post may be pretty late for some, most  but look okay I’ve been busy…I’m still writing about this past year in my drafts okay, cut me some slack…

So…drum roll please!! Here’s my guide to Freshers: the ultimate two weeks of beer chugging, excessive spending and general madness before you immerse yourself in lectures and reading lists.

  1. The first thing you do after you pack? Go and meet your flatmates obviously! You really don’t want to be known as the Awkward Annie that just cowered in their room the whole time…go say HI. GO. *gives you a little push*
  2. Keep a door wedge. It’ll prove handy.
  3. Don’t shit where you eat
  4. Don’t buy expensive kitchenware and cutlery. Shit will go missing. Trust me.
  5. First impressions do count but at the end of the year they will have completely overturned. My first impressions of everyone I met this year have nearly all changed
  6. A student loan and overdraft is not a handout from the Gods. You will need to pay it back. The debt will increase and increase and soon you’ll be living on Toast for Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner. And you won’t even have enough for butter.
  7. Don’t shit where you eat
  8. It’s normal to want to go all out and spend every day partying and in a drunken stupor so hard that you’ll be a burbling mess half the night but learn to take it easy too. Freshers flu is a thing. Look after yourself.
  9. If you don’t drink then don’t despair. There will be stuff going on for non drinkers: take advantage of them!
  10. It’s a good idea to get the academic stuff sorted out too by checking reading lists, making sure you’ve enrolled on your modules etc
  11. Don’t shit where you eat – no seriously, sleeping with a flatmate is the worst idea ever. Unless you want it to be awkward for the remainder of the year.
  12. Get involved in as much as you can!! Before you get overwhelmed with work!!
  13. Enjoy ya’self hunnies 🙂

Emma Blackery Book Signing

Sassy British Youtuber and Musician Emma Blackery released her first book on the 7th September titled ‘Feel Good 101’ – I want to rave about how amazing it is and how equally great her book tour is as I had the pleasure of attending.

Emma has been one of my favourite YouTubers to date; her stringent, sarcastic coinage of phrases such as ‘I have girl balls’ and her ability to be brash about her flaws and her fuck ups. So when she announced she was doing a book tour a few months back, I jumped at the chance to see her and excitedly booked tickets for the London Piccadilly date.

I got to the Waterstones store and queued up, waiting for the doors to open for the room in which the Q&A would take place. Taking in all the excited young teenagers with brightly coloured hair and pastel t-shirts, I knew that there were a lot more people than just me who were pretty hyped to see Emma tonight.

We were hustled in and I took my seat and the shiny new book that was handed to me as I walked in.

When Emma entered the room there were excited ‘whoops’ and ‘ooohs’ as she took her seat at the front. Luckily, I had an aisle seat and could witness all the action from a pretty good view. The Q&A began and questions about her book, her experiences writing it and her influences arose. What had the process been like? Would she do a sequel?

I loved the fact that she was so candid and conversational throughout. I know that many Q&A’s are based upon that premise but Emma wasn’t just focused on professionalism but being also being honest and open and that was one of the primary focuses of her book.

After the Q&A, Emma began her book signings. A small group of excited teens began singing her songs in the midst of it and the Waterstones staff looked at each other with bemused expressions. As I became next in line, I handed my book to her and had a sort of stage fright moment not knowing what to say in these two minutes that would cement our (second)(more about that later) meeting.

“Hi, how are you?” she asks

“Fine! How are you?” I babbled.

“Mentally exhausted” she answered calmly, taking my book.

“Were you part of the singing?” she asked?

“No, I-my vocal chords weren’t up to that” I answered, nervously...(what the hell was I going on about lol)

“I’ve had people do that in gigs for me but never in Waterstones” she commented, delighted.

I forgot to give my phone to the ‘camera guy’ (stand in Waterstones staff) and there was an awkward moment where they had to ask me for it in the middle of this conversation.

“I just want to say, I have anxiety and your videos have really helped me” I put in as I took my book back.

“I’m really glad to hear that, there’s a section in my book about anxiety” she answers.

“Have a great day” she calls after me as I walk away.

“You too” I answer back, robotically as she turns to her next fan, flashing a smile.

The whole experience was small but sweet. Meeting Emma was a lovely, whole hearted experience.

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